nxt weeks gonna be hectic. tmrs my rest dae and mon...
i shall have plans...
im quite a frequent blogger right? ppl juz dont notice...
todae. i had cip at the music by the park at the field beside tanah merah station.
i had an afternoon nap and woke up at arnd 445...i was meeting judee and xq at simei at 515...
i am gonna be late. the bed was soooo good!
anyway so we ate the food court uh huh carrot cake for me!
then we reached there. there were 20 over of us. all volunteers!
now im trying new stuff for fun! its different experiences.
there were a few two fivers. but yeah i recognize all of them.
so it was okae<). so we split up and my grp was to giv out filers. boring huh the other grp gave out balloons! so i had trouble approaching ppl. im scared! i admit! then i met jo and mag^) they helped me quite a bit! thank god! so yeah they were bugging me to buy popcorn for them... so okae found a dollar on the floor! later we went to the back to play balloons! hhaha had some fun. me and xq were pretending to be a judee-nic couple. i mean their former chemistry is over! but it still lingers right? so xq was judee and she was like "these flowers (balloons) represent the many feelings i have for u" and i was like "ah...you are like the only star that shines at night for me" hahah we were so getting high...its pwetty lamee so later gen and nic left for camp... then it was the balloon frenzy! we found out we had to give out all the balloons so we worked hard! yeah me rachelle and jas were balloon tiers. clare was balloon pumper. xq was balloon holder. we had roles u noe! the rez gave out! i kapoed 3 balloons. white green orange. italy flag XD. haha i gave judee the orange tho. took cab home. reached home bout ten... now comes the gloomy part...
b4 i went home i called dad twice mum twice home once bro once.
im a totally cant go home fweak i guess.
i was juz looking for a ride... so yeah i didnt get it.
and i went home. secretly wishing someone to be home.
no one. totally black only the fish tank light was on.
at least they're arnd. the fishes i mean.
i nvr liked going to a empty hse. its scary and lonely.
tts why i wished ah ma was arnd. she was always ready to welcome us home.
now its all of us we busy lives and we come back home to sleep.
sad right. but its abt the same for everyone besides hsewives.
so now in class theres lots of friendship probs.
yeah i figured that friendship begins with trust and initiative.
first u dun trust ur fren then u start to suspect her for this and tt. bad stuff of cuz.
then it comes the assumptions leading to misunderstanding
then the avoiding. yeah then ur frenship breaks.
to keep friendships takes lots of effort esp p6 ones. or earlier ones.
once in a while u gotta contact the person or else the nxt meeting will be super awkward.
but sometimes i feel i treasure it so much that im desperate.
some ppl think its nothing but its a friendship built up after yrs.
its something i will not let go of.
but tts my personal experience.
i wonder how its like for others. does everyone think so naively?
or do they think so deep that theyre trying to read their friends?
or do they be really careful about it?
actually if everyone juz relax and quit suspecting each other. everything will be fine.
but how u gonna do tt? its hard right? but u gotta take the risk of being backstabbed or betrayed
in some sort of way. juz put ur pride down and let things juz flow.
thinking so much doesnt help. the more u think the more suspicions arise.
some that are totally unnecessary.
i dislike pretenders. who does? i dun like ppl who dislike a person yet they continue being frens with.
i find that some ppl think i might be pretending to be their fren.
but isnt tt so fake? maybe its cuz i didnt even dislike u?
and yep im being cautious with a few ppl in the class.
im keeping the distance . i dun wan the suaning and pretending.
i juz wan a simple relationship.
i heard. that there
were people who
opened my report
book before i even
touched it.
and i say.
no. totally
no right
alright. gosh
wad abt my privacy.
if u seen it and kept
it to urself its okae.
but how come i
received smses
from a bunch
of people abt
they knowing my
results before my
mum even passed it to me.
even if i got first
or second or last.
its not right.
i haf a choice to
tell ppl or not.
and out of all the ppl that noe.
there is one.
that pisses me off.
its my thing.
i haf to knoe it
before i allow u to see.
bloodie hell.
swaying out_ger*